Lent

Lent is a time for self examination. I think that all fellow med students would agree that this semester is rough. This excruciating, unrelenting schedule will be over in a few months, but we must make it that far! After many discussions with my roomies and parents, I had a revelation. It's really hard to continue on with this when I know that my life is at a halt. I looked at other's fb profiles and become disheartened b/c life was continuing forward without me. I also have a problem with constantly comparing myself to others. Most would agree that this is what has gotten me where am I today or that it only gives me a competitive nature... However, when taken too far, it can lead only to self loathing. Like, why can't I be as smart as ___. Or, life would be so much easier if ___. These only lead to utter frustration. So, for lent this year, I have given up fb in order to reflect on my strengths and restore my daily walk with God. As I progress through med school, I believe that he has put me here in this situation to strengthen me for what He has planned for me. Right now, I need to trust in Him and make it through this year!! :) Hopefully, this will put my life in perspective.

Cause & Effect

I feel like a freakin' crazy person.

This week: After reading two emails and not paying attention, I missed out on a meeting and forgot to dress up for a picture. Not a big deal... Then, I got a message to meet someone in the lobby today. Like an idiot, I somehow thought he said the student lounge. I then received a text asking me if I were coming to the lobby.... I lost my phone at the house and couldn't find it anywhere. After Britni called it 3 times, I found it in the pantry on a shelf. I just lost my charger after absent mindedly putting it down.

Conclusion: I am slowly loosing my mind. I have turned into a person that doesn't really read emails, forgets appointments, and loses objects all around the house.

Resolution: I am going to try to make my life more balanced. Maybe then, I'll concentrate better and regain some sanity. This includes swimming 3 times a week.... Hopefully, I won't completely lose my mind. Then, we'll all be in trouble.