Sunday, October 31, 2010

Me, Myself, and I

Have you ever just lost a little bit of yourself? You're so busy and stressed that you lose a part of who you are. Laughing is harder. Having a normal conversation is more difficult. When you aren't busy, you just feel exhausted and vegetate. That was last year for me. School was hard. Trying to be there for others was even more difficult. Then, I ended up finding out that I had to repeat the year. Perfect. I was upset, to say the least. But, I have a different perspective of it today.

While it's been hard to make new friends and act normal while everyone knows that I am, in fact, repeating. Not fun. However, I can say that I feel the most like myself in a very long time. I don't worry that much anymore. I study when I need to. I meet up with friends (old and new). I have even read a book or two since school has started. (Very abnormal for a med student - ask any that you know.) I laugh more. Very cheesy but true. Maybe God knew what he was doing. Not the easiest path, nor the most pleasant. But, I do feel a little more like myself every day - not that crazy, worried med student that can't have a normal conversation. It feels good to be back. :)