Tough day, better tomorrow?

There are some things that you can just never un-see. There are also things that are never explained well until you do them. When both of those instances combine, you get mass hysteria. I have noticed thus far on wards that your mood is contagious. If you're in a bad mood, then most of your team will be. If you are really stressed, then most of your team will be. If you are FREAKING OUT, then most of your team will be. I've noticed that it's multiplied by 20 when it's the leader of the team. You always think about those that are meant to be leaders and those that aren't. There's a reason that you are told to "set a good example," especially a sense of calm.

My new challenge is to be the rock. Luckily, I have had 2 great boys at my side that make this a little easier. They are less malleable when it comes to a high stress level. They may freak out on the inside, but they keep it together. I would like to think that I hold it together, but my face is all telling. There is just not a good way to keep the shock at bay. When the people in charge freak out, it trickles down and multiplies. Today, that was very apparent. I just wonder sometimes how people do this every day. I will adjust and learn. Today was tough. Hopefully, tomorrow will be better. Maybe I just need a full weekend off. Thankfully, that is this weekend.

The Simple Things

I've noticed that it's the little things that matter. Little things can turn into big things - good or bad. For example, my laundry piles up all week, and my room becomes cluttered (shocking!). At the end of the weekend when I feel guilty, I begin to clean up sections of the room or do a load of laundry. On Monday when I'm getting ready, it feels great! It's like a whole new world that is in order. (If only all of life was this simple!) Then, there are little things that bug you to death and end up driving you crazy.

When I'm stressed or feeling like a failure at, well, life, the simple act of putting something else in order makes life more manageable. You would think that I would have figured this out by now, but I guess I forgot. Just sharing this little pearl. So, just doing something simple for someone else is a small little miracle. I miss my dad b/c he does that for us - getting a tank of gas or running and errand for us. He is busy too, but he is always willing to do something small for us. Man, I wish I were in the Ham! :)